Retrospective and Resolutions

Well, my first year of blogging is over.

I was looking over the posts from the past year, and I have to say, I am really glad I started this simply for the sake of my own memories. There are a dozen or so things I saw that made me smile, or that reminded me how good God has been to Matt and I, and how much we have been blessed over the past year. Things like the soy milk ice cream, the conversation with my dad and the ways he's struggled this past year, the stupid things Matt and I argued about during the wedding planning, and then wedding itself and the honeymoon, adjusting to living in the same place, the house hunt, actually finding the house and moving in... It's all been so very good, when I look back.

I'm also a little chagrined to see how much I've gotten out of the habit of blogging, especially since this fall. I think about all these little things that happened which I didn't journal (because really, that's what it is, a journal I'm sharing as I'm writing it) and which I'll probably forget about before this year is over.

I know that part of it has been laziness. Just plain laziness keeps me from picking up the computer and posting something. It's easier to just watch movies with Matt, or lose myself in some mindless online game, than it is to sit and write. And a part of it has been computer issues which then lead (in my mind) to a back up of all these things I would like to write about. The perfect is the enemy of the good in this case, and I give in to that feeling that I will never catch up so why even try. Those two are the biggest issues, sure, but the other problem is that sometimes, the things that are going on in my life and in my mind are pretty personal, and I hesitate to put that stuff out there when I have no way of knowing who's reading it and what they're taking away from it.

Which leads to me not posting.
Which leads to me feeling like I'm building up a backup of things to post.
Which leads to me feeling overwhelmed and not even trying.
Because I'm lazy.

So, New Year's Resolution is this: I will try to post 3 times a week. I will try. I will not try to catch up if I miss that goal and only make it to 2 posts in a week. If I post more than 3, that's okay. Last year I posted 84 posts, which comes out to a little better than 1 1/2 posts a week. So I think this goal is reasonable.

I'll also try to open myself up a little bit more, while still being wise and not oversharing our lives. I have no idea what that will look like yet. I guess we'll find out together.